Yeah, the title does not make sense , I can read it too. But the past two weeks have been so overwhelming in being busy and making choices that these two words have just become intermingled in my brain. I read(rather heard) somewhere that while you need to have plans for the future, some events in life are like dots, which connect themselves in the future in ways that may surprise you. Now knowing this fact, its irritating when your brain starts to already explore ways in which these dots may connect. And this has started affecting my decisions which is, again, irritating.
I always looked at some people and thought, "Man, this guy always remains so busy, why does he need to, can't he relax". I vividly remember even once scolding a person close to me about remaining so busy and not taking out time to chill. The bad part comes when one day you realize that you are in a position worse than that. Its even more frustrating when you have a ton of work and realize that you haven't done it as fast as you could. Its then that I realize that why can't I relax. Do I need to be that guy? What's the use of it? What will it give me at the end of the day?
Is it worth it?
Decisions. Choices. You need to make them. But when? Probably what caused all this were two simple lines by one of my college faculty:
You have to make choices in life and take a stand.
You can't be good at everything. You can't do Science, Commerce and Arts together.
Reading it like this, it seems nothing you are not aware of. But for me, it is probably the timing of these words. At a time, when I am overwhelmed with stuff. And confused about what I want. And silently realizing that I can't do it all. But again some stuff for me seemed so mixed up, that making a simple choice led to a series of serious big-time decisions which will affect my future actions and intentions.
I knew that I have to make these decisions at some point, but why now? Why do you have to think of so far even to make a small choice?
Why have you screwed up your brain in a way that its making you do this? But then you start to get the feeling that maybe this is not bad. Even if I have to decide now, it probably for the best. Its time to finally face things and clear out your head. Optimism is beneficial only when you know when to use it.
So, finally I faced it. Took decisions. Made choices. At the end of it, I finally know what I want. Which is a big thing itself. This was not a dot that will connect itself in the future. This was two dots from the past that got connected themselves
now. The whole thing was a line being beautifully drawn. And the feeling of satisfaction after drawing the line, by taking some decisions, is enormous.
Bottom-line: Being busy is okay if you enjoy it. Make decisions asap. They help.
